well i'm back..

Well, it's been awhile. The semester was crazy and I was lucky to have thoughts to myself that didn't involve architecture, let alone get a chance to write them down. But with things winding down, there is finally some time to reflect.

To most people, I would probably appear to have things figured out. Last night, I finally admitted that I don't. It's unsettling, a little, to know I can walk around thinking I know it all - and fake it decently well, when deep down I'm flying by the seat of my pants.

So (and I feel like my mother should be listening and rejoicing about this?) I finally can admit.. I haven't got a clue about the world.

That realization has led me into not only some self-reflection, but to see things in a new light. What if we could go back, and see the world as a child again? What if we could look at things so purely and innocently, and not have them tainted by learned stereotypes or behaviors.

I know it's a stretch, so bear with me here, but I think that one of my new year's resolutions will be to grow down, not up. I'd like to act a little more like a kid, and a little less like an adult. Now - you all have pictures of an over-sized child playing video games and eating junk food at 30 living in their parents house right? Well, sadly that is what we've come to be taught that acting like a child, as an adult, means. But not for me. For me, it means to question anything and everything. Why is that the way it is? Why do we do that? Why do we act like this? Not to go all political on you, but I think if we all acted more that way - our nation would not be stuck in the rut that it is in now.

"If you don't like what is being said, change the conversation."

I want to live in a world where politicians question policies and budgets everyday, where designers ask why are doors square and scientists inquire how chemistry works. I want to live in a world of why nots and rule benders rather than robots.

I mean hey, do it now - and ask for forgiveness later right?